Day 4

I'm really struggling with the 'head hunger' still. I think it's largely due to not listening to the CD religiously. It's proving very difficult to find the time I need to commit to it. It sounds ridiculous to say that I can't find an uninterrupted 15 minutes morning and night, but I'm for real. I can listen to the track in the morning, no problems, but before dinner is almost impossible. Tonight I had to put it on my ipod while I cooked dinner and watched the kids. It's hard sometimes having 5 kids. Still, I guess it worked well enough. The kids wanted spaghetti bolognaise for dinner AGAIN. I ate less than they did. I'd say it was about 2/3 cup of spaghetti. I baked a chocolate cake with Tiernan. Didn't have a slice. It's all packed away in the cake container, iced even, and entire. I am SO proud that I didn't have a slice. I ALWAYS have a slice when I make a cake. I love to eat it nice and fresh like that. Tonight though, the thought made me feel ill even though I know how it tastes and that it's nice I just couldn't stomach it. I have a small bowl of diet jelly served instead and not sure if I even need that. It might end up binned still. We'll see. I wonder if I enjoy preparing food nearly as much as I have enjoyed eating... So many thoughts.

I am really starting to feel great. My body feels... I dunno. Firmer? Less jiggly? Something. I am really enjoying my water. I take a 1 litre bottle with me all the time now. I can't get enough it seems. I am drinking around 3L a day. I think it's more than I require but I need enough for myself and to breastfeed Miss Aliyah. Who knows how much milk she takes per day... I guess if I need more, my body will ask for it.

Today I had a small bowl of porridge for breakfast. Lunch was pretty big. I had 2 slices of toast, one with a small amount of scrambled egg, one with a small amount of baked beans. I was so hungry though. I also admit I had a cookie between lunch and dinner. Dinner was a small amount of spaghetti bolognaise. All in all, I'm happy with that. Tomorrow is a new day! Don't ya love that!!!