I have been overweight for about 15 years now but since I was pregnant with my first child I have found it really hard to get rid of the excess weight. In fact, it has actually increased over the years despite my efforts to lose weight. I have found it hard to commit to any one program for a long period of time. After having my second child, I lost just under 30kg some 5 years ago with Weight watchers. I got down to 89kg. That's the lowest weight I can remember being. Since then, I have had 3 more babies. put all of it back on. At times I was accepting of this and felt that was just my destiny. My body had a weight it felt comfortable being, so that was that.
Now with 5 children under 8, my childbearing days have come to an end. With this in mind, I feel it's time I concentrate on making myself the best I can be and getting myself sorted out. No excuses!
I have considered gastric banding/ lap banding surgery for quite some time now. I was quite mortified to learn my BMI is 37.4 currently. I am in the 'obese' category and heading up to the 'morbidly obese' range. I will not allow that to happen. I want to be able to be free to do the things I want. I want to be able to play with my kids - to run, to dance, to kick the ball around the yard, to swim with them. I want to see them grow into their own people. I want to be able to buy clothes I like, not clothes I have to buy because that's all that's my size. I want to be healthy, confident, full of energy. Most of all I want to be happy in my own skin! I want to like the me that I see in the mirror.
It was time for some drastic changes to be made. I have new hair. It's a start. I have had the same hair-do for years now. Long, one length, no fringe. BORING! Now it's just above my shoulders, layered, thinned out etc. I use a straightener for a different look. Normally it's wavy, now it's straight. I think in a way, the change in hair was the starting point. Next up was to do something about my body.
I have considered gastric banding/ lap banding surgery for quite some time now.Unfortunately it was always out of reach. Financially it was a big deal. The surgery costs around $15,000. If I had Private Health Insurance I could claim most of it and be out of pocket by about $4000. Even if I did have the money, I don't think I could take the time out for the operation, then the recovery. Having 5 children plus a Husband depending on me makes elective surgery a really hard decision to make. My Mother introduced me to the idea of Hypnobanding. "What a brilliant idea," I thought. "Why had no one thought of this before?"
I had my hypnobanding done today. Jane from http://www.janefielderconsulting.com.au/ did it for me. It was a great experience. It was a very relaxing experience really. While I was under the hypnosis, I can't say I remember a time being in such a deep relaxing state as I was then. It was all so real too. I truly felt like I was in a Hospital. I could hear the sounds, smell the smells and see the lights in the theatre room.
I already feel different. I came home at lunch time. For lunch today I thought I'd reheat some left overs from last nights dinner. I ate about half of what I served up for myself. Normally I'd have eaten all of that and then looked for something sweet. All up I ate 1 piece of broccoli, about 3 carrot slices, a couple of tablespoons of mashed potato and 1 slice of roast beef. I still wanted something sweet, even though I knew I wasn't hungry. Bad habits! Instead of the big slice of cake I was thinking about, I cut a very thin slice, then sliced a portion of that off. About one bite. That was enough.
So here I am, at the beginning of my journey. This could be the best thing I have done for my health. I'm looking forward to seeing the results. I also plan to keep breastfeeding my 3 month old while I lose weight.
My stats on starting today
Height: 176cm
Weight: 116kg
BMI: 37.4
Hips: 126cm
Waist: 114cm
Bust: 121cm
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