Day 2

Last night ended well. I didn't need any food between lunch and dinner, which is normally when I like to snack. At about 4pm I felt hungry. I was sidetracked by my Mother in law bringing my boys home from having a sleepover at her house. By about 4.30 my tummy was rumbling but then Aliyah wanted a feed so I wasn't going anywhere ;)
I made spaghetti bolognaise for dinner and manage to eat an entree serve amount. I didn't feel hungry after that and had some more water and a peppermint and chamomile tea later on.

Today when I woke up I didn't feel hungry, which is so unusual. Normally I feel starving in the mornings and if I don't have breakfast within about half an hour I feel sick. Today it wad 8:30am by the time I decided I should eat. I made porridge and ate maybe 1/3 of what I'd normally have. Jayden thought that was pretty cool because I gave him half of what was in my bowl. My kids are eating way more than me now. Jayden ate a fried egg, a piece of smiley fritz and about 2/3 cup of porridge. Not sure where he puts it.

It seems I eat quite often when I don't need to. Everytime the kids want a snack, I find myself thinking about something too. It makes me realize I must have been picking at food on and off all day.

I made toasted sandwiches for the family for lunch. I had one and a bit. Shaved salami and cheese. They are yum - tastes kind of like pizza but not. I'm really starting to have a hard time not eating little bits here and there. I got my CD today that I'm meant to listen to twice a day. I reckon it'll make a big difference and help me stay focussed.

Decided to bake some lactation cookies today. I feel a bit weird about the breastfeeding while eating so little. These cookies apparently help milk supply and quality so I am toying with the idea of adding a couple of them to my daily intake. Not sure when in the day I will eat them but I think it'll be a good thing providing I don't eat too many. Maybe even just one every now and then. I don't know. Probably wouldn't want/need them every day anyway unless Aliyah's weight starts dwindling. They taste amazing anyway, at least they do warm. I struggled to eat one though, very sweet.

Lactation cookies

I am feeling a bit concerned about my birthday. We're having my 30th birthday party at Buckingham arms hotel. It's a buffet type arrangement. I thought it would be a good idea at the time but now I wonder. Will it still be fun? Will I eat much? Will I completely lose the plot and go overboard? If so, how will that effect my banding? Will I just be able to refocus the next morning when I listen to my CD? Am I worrying over nothing?